August 2010
1 post
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i woke up
i just want to stay in and listen to music
July 2010
1 post
caress or destroy
fingertips powerful enough to tear through my ribcage nails press against heart wordlessly beckon you to do what you will time and breathing stop no room for fear now to have and to hold
June 2010
2 posts
like stop
the only terrible things i want to do to you are the ones that make you scream words that you don’t mean.
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if i go to sleep
the music stops
May 2010
1 post
static
I have missed the noise. The beautiful noise.
All of the layers. All of the chaos.
Crafted. Created. Crashing.
It bristles at the ignorant. Pushing away the simple.
Begging to be pealed apart. To be understood. To be embraced.
Let it wash over you. Get lost. Drown.
Wake up and feel the cold of silence. Come back to the noise.
December 2009
4 posts
3 tags
if i could just hear you breathe behind me
my stress level wouldn’t even be measurable right now the peace you bring me by just being there is amazing and it’s why i notice each second when you aren’t within arms reach not that i need it, but it’s the nicest thing in the world to have close
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because your target audience is on at 1am on a...
no they aren’t
you are an idiot
you don’t know how to use that which you promote
you, social media tool
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the thing about transitional stages in life
is that no matter how old you are, explaining it to your parents before you have it all figured out, is always a big pain in the ass
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i will never refer to someone as 'my boo'
‘my’ anything is hard enough
November 2009
3 posts
3 tags
silent grenade
People who are nonconfrontational cause more chaos with their inaction than they can control. And when they lose control, the destruction from the pent-up energy does more damage than all of their drama queen friends combined.
Say it now before it explodes.
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social animals
everyone has this wall that they cannot cross they have to fight for themselves they cannot ask for help they cannot seem weak yet they cannot handle it it consumes them with things they hate things they are above things they persecute others for
our moments of weakness define us they make us bristle everyone has them everyone knows everyone has them yet we continue to hide we continue to judge
...
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those couples, they make me ache
for us
October 2009
4 posts
2 tags
everybody that thinks they're somebody, when...
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personal matters
why don’t you take it personally? fuck you, for making me feel guilty for making it matter how many daily activities do you go through the paces on just to pass the time? if it doesn’t it matter, you don’t matter
4 tags
something changed tonight
i found myself inspired by the internet again, all it took was a familiar soundtrack from my impressionable days. here’s hoping it’s the start of everything real.
6 tags
walk
So apparently, if I have trouble sleeping, then you get something to wake up to. I get left with my thoughts, and my habits lately have been to frustrate myself with unanswerable career goals questions to the point I make myself even more awake. So I escape, to peaceful thoughts of you, us, and the endless possibilities.
Funny how possibilities with you make me happy and don’t intimidate me...
September 2009
2 posts
2 tags
but she is fucking evil
5 tags
I long to stay, yet fear to stop.
My limbs are...
August 2009
6 posts
1 tag
idealism is not a weakness
i’m sorry you gave up on perfection
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honor out of fear is service, not loyalty
honor those that make you better. do not surround yourself with yes men that will let you build your country on matchsticks.
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what draws me to you is that which you cannot...
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as long as you react that way, i'm going to keep...
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the amateur
I don’t take it seriously But I have skills beyond the skill-less Impressive to the nice Embarassing to the professional
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what are you?
in a constant battle of with my sense of idealism questioning on whether or not it is misplaced does it cause a constant state of discontent? or does it encourage me to improve my threshold of satisfaction? to make the payoff that much better i’m a masochist
July 2009
4 posts
1 tag
perfection can be improved and it's that much...
1 tag
when everything becomes acceptable there is...
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I don't know how to protect you from yourself
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you thought this was america
i must have looked quite dumbfounded when she made that racist comment. i don’t know why i still allowed myself to be surprised by such small mindedness. for some reason when i step into a family event i assume since we’re all from the same background, that we view humanity in the same way. it wasn’t the worst thing i’ve ever heard, but her ignorance to how she sounded is...
June 2009
9 posts
3 tags
leaders who want followers over supporters don't...
1 tag
holy shit that felt fantastic.
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no choice
i can’t change it, i wouldn’t change it. we’re better for it, but you’d be a fool not to wish for that ignorance again. every relationship has that undefined corner, it has to be analyzed. it has to be understood and lit up. the result will be the same, but the tour could have been longer. we should have come through the side door. we would have found so much more to share,...
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clumsy
this is the moment until the next one. it has to start somewhere. a false start attempts action. physically you are where you were, but you know more than a second before.
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boxes
i was obsessed with figuring life out as soon as possible. then, all i would have to do is play the game, go through the motions, conquer it, and have plenty of time to explore. no stress. complete freedom. instead i’m trapped in a room without power. no conduction, no spark, no outlet, no power.
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ride
where does the journey end? does it matter. the journey is the story. the back cover is a filter for the ignorant.
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breathing
say what you will. it was peaceful. it was alive. split seconds of perfection that added up to more pure happiness than i knew what to do with.
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and seek
outlets are hard to find, but necessary. i feel out of balance. i’m falling into easy habits too often. find myself waiting for inspiration. always assuming it will find me. No effort required. it’s always worked that way. why would it stop? if it doesn’t work that way, then it wasn’t meant to happen.
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pulse
wake up. set myself on fire. turn it upside down. again? again.